Waiting Game

It's been a Seattle kind of week- clouds, rain, cold. Since we have moved to Washington God is being very quiet, and as of lately SILENT. This has been very hard for me because He usually doesn't use the silent treatment on me:) Our prayers are not being answered the way WE thought they would, in fact nothing is happening. Our house isn't selling, isn't being shown, we don't know if we should buy or rent, we don't know which church He wants us to members of, we don't know where to put Savvy in kindergarten next year, and don't feel like God is directing us in any direction. To be honest I don't like it. I'm being stretched, bent, pushed but I'm NOT broke. I'm still pursing Him knowing that He will answer and He will come through.

I have started a spinning class and am loving it. I got to go yesterday and during one of the hard songs the instructor told us to go to a dark spot in our life and face it head on, push ourselves (this sounds silly but I was totally into it) I imagined me in a forest with God out in front of me but just out of my reach. I cranked up my resistance and pushed as hard as I could with tears in my eyes. I felt like Jacob wrestling, my endurance was renewed and I'm not stopping. Of course I wanted to make money on our house selling, wanted to move into a bigger, nicer house here. But more than this I have no comfort unless I'm in His will. Later on that day I realized that because God is being silent when He does speak, it is going to shatter the stillness I feel. I can't wait to see what He has to say.

So what do the Clay's do while they are waiting on God.... we make lava lamps. Baby oil, water, food coloring, alka seltzer and boom!